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Wednesday, August 18, 2010

in other news..

I had my first trimester screen and ultrasound yesterday. It was so much easier going to this appointment since I had already confirmed the heartbeat the night before! As expected though, my doctor teased me about having it. He said "if the baby comes out shivering and shaking, we'll know why." I cant believe he said that! My husband said "he was just kidding!" (ugh, men!), but still... saying that to me of all people, he should know I would worry. So I said "is it really a risk?" and he said there's no proof whether it's a risk or not... but it has lower sound waves than an ultrasound, so the risk is low. Hm. What's "low?" The risk for stillbirth of a healthy term baby is "low" too, by some standards. Crap. I guess I'll be limiting the use to every other day instead of every day. He said he understood how hard it is, especially before you can feel movement, but he said the risk of maternal stress isn't good either.

Bottom line - nothing is easy in pregnany after loss. TWO types of losses. Will I feel safe in trimester 2 because I've never had a loss during that time? Doubtful.

It's a good report though... heartbeat 160s, all bloodwork looks good, I lost a pound (gained a bunch at first because I was so hungry! leveling off now..) my blood pressure is stellar at 118/68. I've never had such good BP as I do in pregnancy! We had a good talk about some plans for later in the pregnancy such as when to deliver, seeing the MFMs, when NSTs will start, what we'll do if there's a questionable one, whether I'll need an amnio/steriods depending on how far I go... I felt really good about the appointment. One of my two favorites is leaving for Iraq very soon, and this one I saw (the one who's not leaving) said he's ok if I just see him while the other is gone (there are 8 in the practice.) I feel most comfortable with those two.. and they will do the c-section. He's the one who delivered Kathlyn, and the other one did Cherry baby's "delivery", so I know they are honored and excited about delivering tweetie bird for me :)

I think it's a girl... some people I know sometimes see the beginnings of a boy at these 11-12 weeks appointments... but nothing here. We'll see.. doesn't matter to me. Next appointment: September 1.


  1. Praise God for a good report! I will be praying for you!


  2. Beautiful little birdie! I'm glad things are going well!

  3. Your little one is so sweet! :) I say use the doppler every day if it makes you feel better. I think it's safer than being stressed about your baby.

  4. Thrilled, thrilled, thrilled!!! Just so thrilled for you and sweet Little Birdie!!

    If it makes you feel better, my MFM is seriously like family to us (he was just SO broken after Matthew died...he felt so guilty, like he'd missed what could have saved his life and he really had no control over that, but still...) and he is almost as invested in us bringing this baby home as we are. Emphasis on almost.

    Anyway, he knows I use the doppler about 2-4 times a week and I get level II ultrasounds every other week and in 5 weeks, well move up to getting level II every week and when I asked if that was overkill and was harming the baby, he said he was not one bit worried about it. And honestly, knowing how nervous he is about all of this for us, if he was even the slightest bit worried, I know he'd tell me. I think the doppler use and frequent ultrasounds are fine. He told me that different doctors had different opinions but in his research, he'd not found anything conclusive enough to make him limit monitoring and mental health and well-being is important for us!!!

    SO glad to see your beautiful little one!

  5. Your little Birdie is BEAUTIFUL!!!! For some reason I think he's a boy, I don't know why. I'm thankful you got a good report from the doctor. xoxoxo

  6. PS...meant to say it earlier...I think it's a girl too!

  7. So glad you have something beautiful and hopeful to look forward to. Thank you for being so honest and writing your feelings.